Category: The Journey
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Evolving Sara
Who the FUCK am I?!?!? What the FUCK is the point of my life?!?!? I feel like I have been thrown into an existential crisis. Since losing the ability to walk, and the ability to do many of the things I enjoy due to Multiple Sclerosis, I often question who I am and what my…
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Judgy Judgerson
That title refers to me – and I’m guessing it can refer to all of my readers, also. (Yep, I’m already judging you because that’s what I do!) If we’re all being completely honest here, VERY few people, if anyone in this world, lives judgment free. Some of us just become judgier than others –…
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The Victim or The Creator
There are many things that happen in our daily existence that are outside of our control. These experiences usually elicit some type of emotion. Think about your day so far. Have there been experiences that have altered your mood – either positively or negatively without you consciously choosing that emotion? When someone cuts you off…
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Fill Your Bucket
Since my last post (3 months ago) I have been dealing with a lot of negative emotions. I don’t know if starting therapy in March unearthed some things I need to deal with, if these feelings and thoughts stem from my MS and its constant battle against my body or what spurred this episode. I…
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Toxic Positivity
PSA: If you are offended by foul language, you probably want to skip this post. I have always smiled – a lot. Sometimes I don’t even realize it and my face just naturally goes to that position. Some people suffer from RBF (Resting Bitch Face). I guess I was blessed with RNF (Resting Nice Face).…
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Asking for help
I have never given much thought to how I feel about asking for help, until recently. Probably because before the progression of my disease I rarely HAD to ask for help (Or more than likely I didn’t ask even when I probably should have). Now, it is an everyday, many times a day, occurrence. And…
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Faith/Knowing
Today marks the one year anniversary of my “epiphany” about being healed. In the blog “Believing is Seeing” you can read about my first experience of getting completely connected to my source and the love within. It has been quite a year since. I have really been trying to focus on the positive aspects of…
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I Am…
You are ugly! You are stupid! You are fat! Do I have your attention yet? I’m sure some of you are offended and taking those statements very personally – as you should! Would you want to be around someone very long who spoke to you this way? I hope not. I hope you would remove…
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Worthiness
Worthiness is the quality of being good enough. It’s hard to write/say out loud, but something I have struggled with throughout my life is being good enough. Everyone’s instinct when they hear someone say this is to reassure the person and tell them how great they are. Don’t get me wrong, I appreciate compliments and…
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Control
Yesterday, when I was meditating, two words kept coming up – trust and control. I have come to the harsh realization that I am, and always have been, a bit of a control freak. According to Wikipedia, “Control freaks are often perfectionists, defending themselves against their own inner vulnerabilities in the belief that if they are not in total…