From Epiphany to Endurance: Choosing Faith Daily

One Year Since the Epiphany

Today marks the one-year anniversary of my “epiphany” about being healed.
In my blog Believing is Seeing, I shared my first experience of fully connecting to my source and the love within. It’s been quite a year since then.

Sharing the Light While Honoring the Dark

I’ve made a conscious effort to focus on the positive aspects of my journey here—to inspire others who may be suffering and remind them that things can and will get better. I also know that dwelling on the negative only invites more of it.

That said, this journey hasn’t been all sunshine and roses—and I’d be doing you a disservice if I pretended otherwise.

The Struggle is Real

I’ve had several “dark nights of the soul.” There were moments when I cursed ever being introduced to Dr. Joe and this path. Moments of pure agony and despair. Moments where I asked, Why isn’t it getting better faster?

Why am I trapped in this body?
That’s exactly how it feels—like being imprisoned in my own personal hell.
My mind is eager to accomplish so much, but my body just won’t cooperate.

I’ve felt angry. I’ve felt jealous of those who can simply “get up and go.”
And yes, I’ve had moments where giving up seemed like the easiest option.

The Daily Anchor: Meditation and Faith

Yet, every morning, before I begin my day, I still take time to meditate and reconnect with my source.

Why?

Because I have faith—or rather, a knowing—that this path is right for me.
It’s not just something I believe intellectually; it’s something I feel in my heart. When I meditate and allow myself to receive the love that surrounds me, there’s a deep peace that follows.

A Divine Conversation

A year ago, during that epiphany, I had what I can only describe as a conversation with my Creator. I was assured that I was healed, and I knew—without a shadow of a doubt—that everything was going to be okay.

I felt unconditional love.
I felt a deep, soul-level knowing that everything was unfolding exactly as it should.

But that feeling can be hard to hold on to—especially when I wake up to a physical reality that looks so different.

Chasing the Feeling

There were many months where I meditated in search of that same feeling—that powerful, euphoric love. It was like a high, unlike anything I’d experienced before.

But now I’m learning something new:
I don’t need to wait for meditation to access that feeling.
It lives in the heart.
It’s the energy of love, joy, and wholeness.

It’s Okay to Get Off Track

And I’ve realized it’s okay to lose my way sometimes.
The key is finding my way back—back to that heart-centered place.

More Than Just Science

Dr. Joe Dispenza uses science to explain the “mystical” experiences that occur during meditation. While I understand the science, what resonates most for me is the feeling—the physical, tangible sensation of eternal spirit moving through me.

Surrendering to Trust

I don’t know how—or when—my physical healing will occur.
That’s been one of the hardest lessons: to surrender control.

But I’m learning to have complete faith that everything is happening exactly as it’s meant to.
To stop trying so hard to change things and instead, become the vessel that holds unconditional love.

A Journey Worth Taking

This journey has taught me so much—especially in those still, quiet moments of meditation when I let thoughts go and simply feel.

My life may not look perfect.
But I have faith that it was perfectly designed for me.

The Healing Power of Acceptance