Source

All throughout this blog I talk about God / Source / the Universe and getting “connected”, but what does that all really mean, or feel like? The whole purpose of my journey, I believe, is to discover those things for myself. And what a journey it has been. I am a stubborn soul. It has taken a lot for me to get to this point of understanding. I am so grateful to have had the insights that I’ve had so far and to have been able to experience the love of our creator firsthand! The purpose of this blog and why I am supposed to share my story is to help other people realize the greatness that is in ALL of us.

We are ALL, everyone on this Earth, children of God. Not just the God of a single religion, but God of the universe, the creator of ALL that is. We were born into this world as perfect entities and God is in EVERY single one of us, loving us unconditionally. We are given the opportunity as humans to live a unique life meant only for our own purpose. Everyone gets influenced by the environment they are in, the way they are raised, the people they are around, and a lot of things turn us away from our true nature – one with source. It is the ego that drives that bus and it is not the best tour guide. It is easily distracted by objects in the 3-D world. The way that I finally discovered to bypass the ego and get “connected” to God was through meditation.

I’ve talked about my epiphany through meditation briefly, but have never gone into full detail for many reasons. The things that I felt and experienced during that event seem unbelievable and I was having a hard time letting go of what people will think about me when I share them. I have only told my closest friends about the entire event / conversation because I was scared of the reaction I would get. However, I know without a doubt that what I experienced was real and that I am supposed to share what I’ve learned so far. So, here is what I experienced in April 2020.

I was sitting up in my wheelchair, watching a slide show of my vision board on my phone, feeling in my heart how happy I’ll be when all of those things come to fruition. I could feel my heart expanding with love and intense happiness. My eyes closed and I knew I was in the presence of God – it was greater than any feeling I’ve ever had in my life. It was not separate from me, but a part of me and everything around me. I could feel in that moment that I was connected to everything in this world and I felt so much love and joy for everything. And then I heard, “Throw away your medicine. You are healed.” I just kept saying, “Thank you!” over and over again at first. I was bawling and smiling and overwhelmed with how much unconditional love I felt. After some of the overwhelm wore off, I had some questions for God. I don’t think I was speaking out loud during this conversation, it all took place inside of me.

This is the part that I’ve been reluctant to share because it goes against everything I was taught growing up, but this is the truth of what occurred and I can’t censor it for the masses. This is MY journey after all. One question I had for God was about Christianity. I was born into a Christian family, but from an early age questioned some of the “truths” I had been told. The one thing I always had a hard time believing was that a child born into a non-Christian home and raised in a different manner would go to hell because they did not accept Christ as their savior. How was that fair? God’s response was, “You believe I created the heavens and Earth, right?” (Of course) “Then why would only one group of people get to know me?”

I somehow understood at that moment that we are all God’s children. Our source is not some entity outside of us judging us or manipulating us like a puppeteer. Each of us is one WITH source and can access that feeling of unconditional love through a quieting of our ego driven brain. For me, work with meditation led me to have a personal relationship with God. I don’t believe that is the ONLY path, I believe we each have our own journeys to travel in this 3-D world.

God created all that is in this world from love. We are spiritual beings on a human journey who have come into this beautiful world with the freedom to be and choose our own way. Our source never leaves, but on our journeys most of us forget what we truly are. We become rooted in fear, anger, guilt, greed and all of the negative emotions that we believe protect us or make us better than other humans. When I felt my true nature during my epiphany, I felt only love for everyone and everything; and I knew that I am loved unconditionally regardless of my religion, physical state, financial status, or any other worldly trait. We are all children of one source. When that becomes my truth, I can find no fault in others because I know their true source. I am a work in progress and I am still learning how to live in this light and not let old thought patterns bring me down.

I Love ME!