Tag: multiple sclerosis
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Evolving Sara
Who the FUCK am I?!?!? What the FUCK is the point of my life?!?!? I feel like I have been thrown into an existential crisis. Since losing the ability to walk, and the ability to do many of the things I enjoy due to Multiple Sclerosis, I often question who I am and what my…
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Body, Spirit & Mind
Someone contacted me recently, asking me to talk to a friend of theirs who is newly diagnosed with MS about the healing lifestyle I have embraced. I’ll be honest, I panicked at the thought because I wasn’t sure how to put into words the methods I am using/have tried. Pretty ironic considering I’ve spent the…
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Toxic Positivity
PSA: If you are offended by foul language, you probably want to skip this post. I have always smiled – a lot. Sometimes I don’t even realize it and my face just naturally goes to that position. Some people suffer from RBF (Resting Bitch Face). I guess I was blessed with RNF (Resting Nice Face).…
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Source
All throughout this blog I talk about God / Source / the Universe and getting “connected”, but what does that all really mean, or feel like? The whole purpose of my journey, I believe, is to discover those things for myself. And what a journey it has been. I am a stubborn soul. It has…
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Acceptance
For the past 17 years, I feel like I have been perpetually mourning because of Multiple Sclerosis. I have experienced all of the stages of grief at different times throughout my journey except for the last stage – acceptance. Every time a new symptom has appeared or I lose another function, I go through different…
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Changing my narrative
A vibration is a state of being, the atmosphere, or the energetic quality of a person, place, thought, or thing. Emotions resonate with the vibrational frequency that they generate. In order to heal completely through meditation, I need to “vibrate at a higher frequency.” This means that it’s important for me to stay in a…
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Rock bottom
I’ve really been struggling with what to write these last few weeks because honestly, I haven’t been feeling as great physically as I would like and I have not felt the strong connection to my source like I felt the first few months after my epiphany. I thought that I would be up and walking…
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Letting go
The phrase “let it go” has come up a lot throughout this crazy journey. That statement can have so many different meanings for different people. Like Elsa from Frozen, I can’t hold it back anymore – I need to let some things go in order to heal. First, my religious upbringing. I was born and…
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The Best Doctors
The neurologist who first diagnosed me with MS had a horrible bed side manner and did not fill me with confidence about my ability to fight MS head on. That is one of the many reasons I didn’t see a neurologist for 7 years after my diagnosis. When my symptoms became impossible to ignore and…
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Denial and Diet
I went through a year of hard-core denial after my official diagnosis. I didn’t want to talk or hear about Multiple Sclerosis. That was pretty easy to do when nothing was changing physically. The first change I noticed was a slight foot drop in my right foot. It wasn’t noticeable to anyone else and would…